you are NOT rude, you are senseless.

Being obsessive bout sum1 is never wrong.. Especially when that sum1 is the one that u love. When u love sum1, u want to have him fully to you. That's when things got obsessed and pushed. Okay, fine.. I admit it. He was my love before, he was my evrything before. But since the start of this 2010, he has slowly became A PART OF MY E009's SWEET DREAM.. No more no less.. If only I didn't found out the truth, if only he didn't LIE to me.. If only we understand each other, NONE of this would happen. I don't have to had a river of tears. I wouldn't have REGRET for ever KNOWING you.. :( maybe it's GOD's will to have me had this kind of life.. And.. Surely, with GOD's bless, I'll survive..:)

c'mon arie, give me gud news.. :)

Oh my goodness... I wanna know.. I wanna know.. C'mon arie.. Let me know.. The clock is ticking away.. I wanna know.. My heart pumps real fast. I can't think as if what goes on my mind are all disappearing. Jeez.. 1, 2, 3.. Still.. No answer yet.. :( I sat down on my bed.. Thinking.. What actually do I want? What do I hope for the answer? A YES or A NO? Oh my god!! What if it's A YES? What if it's A NO? My mind are swirling around as if I regret for ever asking it..!! @.@ but still.. Sooner or later, I MUST KNOW!

I'm so confused with myself. I just don't know what to do.
Help me!!

weird dreams come again @.@

i felt like wanna throw myself in the open sea. i just don't know what the heck is going on with me. EVERYDAY, WHENEVER I'M TRYING TO FORGET YOU, I JUST KEEP MISSING YOU. please GOD, help me:(((. i wish i knew what u were before, so i won' t fall that deep. i wish i can return time. then, i'll never knew you. i might be wrong but i thought u r the best thing that ever happened to me when i moved there. i gave u everything, EVERYTHING. but.. i guess a boy is a boy. u just never understand why i can't let u have me AND have her. see, when u have two people that u loved, one is priority while another became an option. i wish u understand. i'm so scared that u made me as an OPTION, and now, i know the truth. U DID! so, the hell with you! i just hope that someday, u'll get what i got!!! it's so terrifying!! knowing that she is the one that u choose instead of me. having tears flowing over ur cheeks every night..... i just can't handle it anymore. I JUST HOPE THAT SHE WILL GIVE YOU A TASTE LIKE THAT !! then, u'll understand....i'm not evil, but people shud get what they deserve....

letter of justification

i flunked my test. i got what i deserve. enough miss?

so happy. just finished IT practical test. i felt so relieved knowing that there's no more of that. hahaha. i wonder what is he doing ryte now? after all, i still care bout him. i just hope that someday he'll realized that i love him. i gave him what i can gave. but i guess it's just never enough. that's why he choose HER over me. i know i'm not better than HER. At least, i gave him my best. still, i wasn't good enough for him. uurrgh! i'm so confused with the word HIM. get out of my mind please?? i'm begging you.... :(((((