weird dreams come again @.@

i felt like wanna throw myself in the open sea. i just don't know what the heck is going on with me. EVERYDAY, WHENEVER I'M TRYING TO FORGET YOU, I JUST KEEP MISSING YOU. please GOD, help me:(((. i wish i knew what u were before, so i won' t fall that deep. i wish i can return time. then, i'll never knew you. i might be wrong but i thought u r the best thing that ever happened to me when i moved there. i gave u everything, EVERYTHING. but.. i guess a boy is a boy. u just never understand why i can't let u have me AND have her. see, when u have two people that u loved, one is priority while another became an option. i wish u understand. i'm so scared that u made me as an OPTION, and now, i know the truth. U DID! so, the hell with you! i just hope that someday, u'll get what i got!!! it's so terrifying!! knowing that she is the one that u choose instead of me. having tears flowing over ur cheeks every night..... i just can't handle it anymore. I JUST HOPE THAT SHE WILL GIVE YOU A TASTE LIKE THAT !! then, u'll understand....i'm not evil, but people shud get what they deserve....